"I never said it would be easy, i only said it will be worth it."

wow i love weddings may i just say! so a friend got married right so i go and have my dress on and all that jazz and wow this boy.... we will stop there lol he is so hot! but uh today has been kinda normal but not boring i had an ok day. i went swimming with the brothers and cousin. ya swimming with 3 younger boys is not so fun lol i was there to get my tan on. totally! but um last night and yesterday was really hard for me. i had break downs not fun. but like i fell asleep and had a cool idea so i got on here and was looking up lesson plans and stuff and like i found some good ones on the worth of a soul and i love it! makes you stop and think its pretty much amazing. i was reading last night and ok so i have been fasting for a long time k so i really want what im fasting for and so i was praying before i went to be last night and it was crazy long! but i have trouble with scriptures i dont really apply them well so spence said to me that i need to pray for help so i did and i just opened up my scriptures and i turned to Mosiah 4 an was reading it and wow it was so cool! like i was reading it and it was totally things i wanted to hear i just thought that it was cool that after i really took spencers advice i got something out of it. pretty cool! but Mosiah is like really awesome i love this book like one of my favorite scriptures is in there its chapter 24:14 it says " and i will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs,even while you are in bondage; and thsi will i do that ye may stand as witnesses for me hereafter, and that ye may know the surety that i, the Lord God, do visit my people in their afflictions ." it totally gives me like that safe feeling that you can turn to God and he will help you with your burdens and trials because heaven knows i have had my share and so have the people i love and we continue to have them and still struggle with some. but i like how you can rely on God no matter what. like it may not be in your time frame you want it to be but he will not abandon you when you truely need him. i think that the lord knows your heart and he knows your stuggles so if your trying to better yourself then why would he not help you and yes sometimes he may have to test that faith and sometimes your not strong enough but he will help you until you can do it. well my personal opinion anyways. i sometimes get greedy and say God why have you not helped im trying to do things right and i want to change so very bad but i feel like its still hard for me. he will help in his time he knows us and loves us he wont leave us. i like it. sorry kinda a random little scripture moment thingy but i just like that feeling that he wont leave you.