bring on the ice cream please!!!

well its been a long time since i have been on here. uh life has been pretty crazy i was up at the Sprouls a lot this week Jim had to go back into the hospital poor guy was doing so much better then all of the sudden he was sick. he is a fighter tho he will be back on his feet in no time. i stayed with Sarah and Nate when Spencer took his parents to LDS Hospital and we kinda just watched some tv and next thing i know i wake up and its like 3 am and sarah is crashed on the couch with me. i woke up to go to the bathroom and next thing i know someone is pounding on the door, it scared me so bad! i open the door and its Spencer i was like dude! i guess he got home went to bed and heard me get up and came up with his baseball bat! he was gonna kill me lol he thought i was a burgular? but i went home after that. I have been up there a lot. i wont be for a long time and that makes me really sad. Ice cream here i come. But ya know if i didnt love the boy so much i wouldnt do this two or three or whatever thing. If it helps him i am all for it. sucks for me because i miss him like crazy but what can you do. hope this goes by faster than it has been today. i kinda had a break down today when that stupid Carrie underwood song just a dream came on. scares me to death. i had a really good cry tho, i made myself sick with the crying so that tells you. But i know he can do it. Prayer and fasting and turning it over to the lord is what i am going to do. I told Spencer that i want to go to the temple with him. so we are workin tward that. then fars!! totally a tradition. But we will see how the next few weeks play out. i hope they go fast. I dislike when my best friend is totally gone for weeks at a time. i just have to keep telling myself this is for him. ahhh lots of prayer thats all we need