So its like 3 a.m. and im kinda getting really really sick of the nightmares. I dont know what causes them but they are getting worse... The one thing that always made them go away well i cant do that and it sucks. I would like to just be normal and be able to sleep. I want to be healthy! I remember the days when i got to sleep... good times. wonder if they will come back or if i will just never sleep. I have read 5 books this week because it takes my mind off the scared feeling when i wake but ya know im starting to look like well like crap. Not ok with that. I would like to say to God at this moment in time that i think i have been tested to much without sleep. I need a good month of sleep. Its kind of adding to the already bigger issues. My brain is really twisted i dont know where its getting the dreams from but it needs to stop. i know things happen in the lords time but on this one i dont feel its fair. I put my biggest desire into his hands already and i have a feeling it wont be on my time so can i please have this one? Till then i guess waking up screaming and crying is in the stack.....
I really miss my Sarah
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