Life...Singing while showering buddies and Crap

If we take a step back and look at life its usually not something we would have planned for ourselves. I was talking to a very dear friend of mine and we were kind of complaining about life and all the crap that has been thrown at us; well as we did this, as we call "suck fest" I thought ya know Mike we have had a lot of crap I said but think about it for a moment, did it teach you something? he thought about it and said ya i guess it did. Well there you go ladies and gents! Problem solved... Not that when i get in that " I hate my life mode" i think of this but another friend of mine taught me something where you kinda take the back seat and let in the world around you for a minute and it kinda freaks you out and your grateful for the crap you have! ha ha. Its crazy how things change in the blink of an eye; I never would have thought i would be playing mommy again while my parents do whatever they feel like. Its not easy. I feel like i have to step up to the plate for both of my parents and be what they are not. I think to myself wow your 18 years old and what have you got to show for it? your family? a deeply failed relationship which your retarded about!! and a semester of college and CNA down. man that's just sad! ha ha. So Mike and I decided to put away the my life sucks card and try to be happy. Not that we are good at it.... if you know me you know im highly dramatic. One second i can be totally happy and fine then the next I am listening to Secondhand Serenade crying over things i should be used to by now... working on it... but hey that's helped with a serving of crazy which i cant help so that's my excuse. Not much in my life is normal... actually nothing is. My mom is dating when im supost to be and i cant because of two reasons but its driving me nuts! My dad is just dad and the twins well they have their days. I decided that i am going to in the summer try to go to Paris, Italy, England, and Rome with a friend who is just as crazy about the history as i am. Maybe my adventure will start there... well if i can afford it ha that's the down part of this fun part of life. I will most likely be stuck here in Utah as a CNA... eh far from the beauties of Paris and Rome. I love elderly people but come on! i got some music lessons from one of my buddies at the nursing home tho and he may just get me through the summer. He says i need to learn to sing for my man. Ha ha we sing Phantom of the Opera when we are showering him point of no return has become a fun song to sing with him! He told me that the way to a mans heart is music. He seems to think i am getting better in my duet with him. I think he is just a bad A! his voice is gorgeous! so my sad little crackle sounds bad next to him! But I don't sing to boys... its scary so well that kinda shot my chances lol I think i sang to two boys one is like my brother the other well lets say it worked for a little bit if Richard is right... hahahahahahaha I love elderly people they rock! there was this woman and she has dementia and she will ask you what the weather is every other sentence and i love her! she tells me the best stories from her childhood, the other day she told me my hands were damn cold and i need to wear her jacket and obey her haha love it! i don't know where i was going with that but uh....... i guess i should shut up this is kinda longer than i thought it would be....