Weird Phase...

So I decided that I am going through a really weird phase. Danny is trying to help me out of it but I really want to go back like a year or two. I miss my friends and I miss my life from back then. I was looking at pictures and I used to have so much fun, I was gone every night with my friends or boyfriend. I feel like I messed everything up and I want to go back and fix it all. I am in a weird place in my life. I either want to go back or just go forward and be in the fun part of life. Where im done with school and working and engaged and just having a blast and loving my life would be really nice. eh I dont really know what to do about it. I miss when I was happy. Im trying to be happy but growing up is not easy. I kind of want my mom and Rob to get married because well two reasons. one my mom is happy. two I would live in Robs house and it would be really good for me to be out on my own. I would love it!! I kinda hope that happens because i feel like im stuck being a child and I really dont want to be. I want to be an adult who can do it all on her own. I dont know what i would do during nursing school but i want to do it. My mom should not have told me about it. I have nothing against mom, thats not why im moving out (I hope) I just dont want to be a child anymore. I know that comes with its struggles but i want them. I have to take care of myself.
The foam party was maybe not a good thing to go to. I loved it at first it was so much fun! I loved the dancing and stuff it was so fun but then all the drunk people came out and it got kinda scary. I like was flippin out because of this situation with this one guy. I was like freaked out so bad danny was like kelsie its ok. I so am not the party kid. not at all..... Oh well i like my mormon status and my conservative ways. I dont understand how people can be diffrent. I am not the greatest mormon for sure but hey im trying. I do mess up but learn from it. I just dont enjoy the party kid life. I dunno.
So I decied that i am like totally attracted to guys who drive motorcycles.. they are so hot.. I used to hate them but not i like flippin love them. there is something sexy about it.