Vacation anyone?

Why do people seem to know how to make things difficult. I decided that in the summer I am going to take a trip somewhere and not tell anyone where I am going. I think a nice vacation could do me a world of good. I wont have to worry about school or work or my family and friends. It will be awesome. It will be a great summer. I have no boyfriend to tie me down and I can have a little fun. Why have I not thought of this sooner?

Weird Phase...

So I decided that I am going through a really weird phase. Danny is trying to help me out of it but I really want to go back like a year or two. I miss my friends and I miss my life from back then. I was looking at pictures and I used to have so much fun, I was gone every night with my friends or boyfriend. I feel like I messed everything up and I want to go back and fix it all. I am in a weird place in my life. I either want to go back or just go forward and be in the fun part of life. Where im done with school and working and engaged and just having a blast and loving my life would be really nice. eh I dont really know what to do about it. I miss when I was happy. Im trying to be happy but growing up is not easy. I kind of want my mom and Rob to get married because well two reasons. one my mom is happy. two I would live in Robs house and it would be really good for me to be out on my own. I would love it!! I kinda hope that happens because i feel like im stuck being a child and I really dont want to be. I want to be an adult who can do it all on her own. I dont know what i would do during nursing school but i want to do it. My mom should not have told me about it. I have nothing against mom, thats not why im moving out (I hope) I just dont want to be a child anymore. I know that comes with its struggles but i want them. I have to take care of myself.
The foam party was maybe not a good thing to go to. I loved it at first it was so much fun! I loved the dancing and stuff it was so fun but then all the drunk people came out and it got kinda scary. I like was flippin out because of this situation with this one guy. I was like freaked out so bad danny was like kelsie its ok. I so am not the party kid. not at all..... Oh well i like my mormon status and my conservative ways. I dont understand how people can be diffrent. I am not the greatest mormon for sure but hey im trying. I do mess up but learn from it. I just dont enjoy the party kid life. I dunno.
So I decied that i am like totally attracted to guys who drive motorcycles.. they are so hot.. I used to hate them but not i like flippin love them. there is something sexy about it.

Fun Times!

Well first week of school always brings the jitters but this semester is ten times worse! There are so many nice people ( guys) up at school! This semester will be so much fun!! Nanny tomorrow, Foam party friday, and Date on Saturday! whooooo being social! Thanks to my fabulous friend Danny we are going to actually be social! I enjoy college as of this week!

Bad news was i had money stolen from my account..... that was not so fun but at least i caught it fast and am in the process of getting the money back into my new account. That makes me breathe a little easier.

Debating on if i should write a friend or not.. im not sure on why im so freaked out to do it because he was my best friend. Ahhhhh I dont know. Crap i suck haha

Dear Weber State,

I hate you! I dont know how anyone can register when they are not higher on the food chain. I have like 5 classes and still dont have 12 credit hours! You suck Seniors!!! Also your "helpers" dont do anything! all he did was tell me to take math! yeah right with Psych, PE, English, and a computer class? your rediculous i would never pass that! stupid stupid man! AHHHHHHHHHH! I cant wait to be a flippin senior because they i get what i want!

stupid weber......

Big date tonight. I have been waiting for this for years! so excited. I just hope it keeps up this way!

Ya know what would be really awesome? If men could read our minds! They are so clueless as to what we really think. Maybe they would actually get the picture for once. I think if some guy ever did something sweet like get me flowers or sent me a letter i would fall over dead. I mean ya it has its down falls but hey it would be kinda nice to have a guy that knew what you wanted and actually was not self centered! What a novel idea right?! To bad it wont actually happen. I think the men in this age need to really step it up! bring back the gentleman theory! The open car doors, bring you flowers, write you a sweet letter, surprise you will a visit at work or something. Any guy reading this statement would say so a sissy?but i think men are so scared to lose that macho image that they wouldn't do it. well i have news for you. Girls like that kind of deal. The sensitive guy who listens to you that's rare and i think more guys should try for that.
I don't know that i want to see into men's brains though. I think that it would be interesting for sure, but i don't know if i would like what i saw. I don't want to pass judgement and say all men are dirty thinkers but if i could skip over that part and really get what men are i think it would be totally fascinating! I think that men and women misunderstand each other and i would love insight to them.

The Blessing!

Well tomorrow is the day... Finally!!! haha no im not engaged its not that big but I get my blessing tomorrow! Im kinda scared and nervous because what if God knows im not meant for big things. Maybe who knows. I wish i could share this with the person who made it happen. As friends that is. Guess its just little old me with the big man tomorrow.