I actually like the Singles Ward lessons! Makes you think

I was thinking today about Christ and it really dawned on me of how great the sacrifice he made. I know I am not perfect in any way shape or form and I have done some pretty stupid things in my 19 years and some are worse than others. In relief society on Sunday we were talking about repentance. I am not very educated in it so I found it a great lesson. I couldn't help but think wow people say all the time that Christ knows what we are going through; well it really hit me as I was thinking about the lesson that he has suffered so much and he really does know exactly how I feel on something that's bothering me. It really blows my mind to think there is one person who truly understands how I feel. It makes me feel bad that maybe if I had not commit ed that sin maybe Christ would have felt a little less anguish. It makes me never want to do something that would ever hurt him. It made me feel extremely close to our savior and I'm so glad that i went to that lesson. I have been thinking a lot about the church this last few weeks and question i had was; everyone on earth accepted the plan that Christ purposed because well they simply are here on earth. Well i wonder if we knew what our lives were going to entail to a degree. Like Hitler is a good example. Did he realize he would come down and murder people. I know we have our free agency and so maybe he didn't. I want to know if we chose to have our lives be the way they are. I kind of think we had some idea as to what it would be like. We didn't care how bad it was down here because up there we saw the entire picture and it was so worth it to come down here that no matter the trial or situation we signed up. I often sit and complain about how my life is so hard and such but this really made me think. I knew what i was doing in heaven and didn't care because I had so much faith in my father in heaven that i said OK it will be hard but I'm doing it! I know that i don't know a lot about the scriptures and everything there is to know about the gospel but things like that really help your testimony grow. Its pretty much amazing. Very humbling. This week has been pretty good I would say.

Quite possibly the best week EVER!

Ya know life is a weird thing. Im sure i have said that many times on here but it never ceases to amaze me. I was thinking about last year around this same time i graduated from high school. Weird to think its already been a year. Funny how time flys. I am not going to lie i hope the next few years go by just as fast. I would like to get out of this fun little stage of my life where your just so weird because your not on your own yet but you want to be so badly you cant taste it! But its not in the cards you were delt.... shoot. I think that it would be nice to be in nursing school already and actually working on what i want to do with my life. That would be AWESOME! This last week has been really, whats the word...... confusing and utterly crazy. I found out some interesting things this week that i cant help but question. But on the up side Sarah and i had our girls day! got our toes done and went shopping and i loved it! love my sister time! sleep over and all! making up for lost time?! Crazy weird nights with Danny haha she is crazy but i love her! saw Priest but we snuck in a cookie from Fat Cats haha skill right there. But we were pretty hyper and it was like only 11 so we went to weber state and just had a blast! we were dancing and singing and just having so much fun up in a dark empty campus... or so we thought haha till the group of boys show up when we are dancing like fools in the fountain! haha good times! I cant complain of life right now. Its pretty dang crazy haha i like this kind of crazy i have to admit! Hazzah to the crazy white girls!!!

I just recieved word from an old professor that the paper i wrote him was one of the best in the semester. He thanked me for sharing my story with him and told me he hopes that the story lives up to its ending. Makes me feel good! see break ups can do good things haha Thank you Spencer for giving me the perfect story!

Attention Drama Queens!!.... or Kings....

So in the midst of cleaning my room i came across a box. A Box that is locked and pretended to be forgotten. Well today i open that box. Bad idea. Its funny how stupid little trinkets and papers and things remind you of apart of your life you didnt want to give up but were forced to. Shoot I feel like i don't even remember that and it makes me really sad. Its used to be so normal and now its so utterly forign.
You know whats annoying; boys asking you to marry them. I know that sounds really mean but if its not the one you want its just annoying. I like really dread those words! I just i know i am not ready to be married; maybe if it were the right guy but like i feel as though I am not ready for it. V and i were discussing this the other day and I really am not ok with this. Why does everyone and there dog want to get married at 18 years old! for some its the right way but i dont think its for me. I would love to be married once i can be independant and not have to rely on a man to support me. I know this seems wrong but guys leave you have to be able to do it alone if you have to. Thats my logic on this. So stop with the question!!!! you know who you are.
Guys just a word of advice... girls dont like to be treated like crap. They dont like being strug around and used. if you want to lose someone you just do it because sooner or later she will dump your sorry butt and find someone who really can treat a girl right. This week i really wanted to say this because of the stinkin drama everyone else has! I realize i kinda didnt get this either but hey you live and you learn right? oh my favorite thing i heard this week is girls are just objects there for us to mess with and throw away... sir you will never be married! i hope that you end up with cats!!! thats right cats!
Now people who are good with life your awesome! people who have drama well please dont come to me! I decided i have enough of it in my life and i am cleaning all the unnessisary drama out. so you give me drama your cut by the way! Uplifting people your welcome to stay because thats so dang awesome! this is all.....